Raw & Real- 2020 reflections

2020. Well, where do I even begin? We were hit by a global pandemic, which really and truly made the world stop. Since, we have watched the devastating impact it has left behind on families, friends, the economy and just our general way of living. Alongside this, we witnessed the murder of George Floyd and how the world amplified the Black Lives Matter movement, teaching society about change and equality, so that millions were raised for families and foundations. There was also the Australian bush fires, which too saw the world come together in donations to save/rebuild the lives that were lost. We watched Harry and Meghan step down from royal duties, we watched Gigi and Kobe Bryant loose their lives in a tragic accident, we watched Brexit, we watched Donald Trump's impeachment trial and we also saw so much more. On a global scale, 2020 has been a complete whirlwind. For me, it has taught me possibly some of the most important things about life. So, please get comfortable and read on...


This year started with me loosing someone close to me. To be honest with you, I have drafted and redrafted this section of the post and still I'm struggling to find the words to express how this period of my life felt. If you've ever experienced grief, you will understand how I am feeling right now writing this and how difficult it is to explain your emotions. However, I know that this time taught me what it truly means to be selfless, as much as I was hurting I wanted to be there for my family and support them through our toughest time yet. It showed me how life's little 'hang ups' really don't matter in times like these and we waste so much of our time worrying about things that don't need to be worried about. When you put everything into perspective, we should just spend the time we have to love, laugh and live.


It wasn't long after, that the world went into lockdown and everybody was faced with a new challenge. Speaking for myself, again lockdown brought me closer to the ones I loved. Our new way of living forced us to take the time to be together, despite the boredom and repetitiveness of my days, I was grateful for my family's health and that we were all in this together. My boyfriend moved in, which I loved as it meant that I got all of the attention haha and all of a sudden I had rediscovered an appreciation for the simple things in life, like sitting down at meals times, playing games, watching movies together and having phone calls with family. 10 weeks together and life began to change again. The government started easing restrictions and suddenly what had become my new norm was disrupted. I'm not going to lie, I found it difficult when my boyfriend moved out, my dad started working again and my brother went back to school, because it felt kind of lonely. But now we have some more freedom back and I am finding new ways to fill my time, whilst I continue to recognise the full worth of life.

Despite, what sounds like quite a depressive start to 2020, I do reflect on this year as possibly the most significant year of my life yet. Thinking forward, 2020 doesn't have to be a write off. I have a holiday to look forward, I start my second year of university, we all have the Christmas festivities to enjoy and whatever the second half of the year brings I have learnt to take it in my stride. Because, at the end of the day life is never going to be a smooth ride, but if you find some happiness even in the darkest of times, then you're doing something right.


Thank you for reading,

E x


 

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